Fucked up!

These voices inside me
Do not whisper anymore
They shout and say
You are Fucked up!
The noises echoing inside
Don’t let the tired eyes
To fall asleep
To dream of it, again.

“Get yourself out of it”
My mind constantly
Pushing me to the edge.
Hold on to it.”
The heart continues
In perseverance.
Get into your zone”
The voice speaks loud
Alarming me of unseen
Selfishness of the world
Leaving you with Nothing
But a Fucked up life!

“This heart of yours, dear
Is totally Fucked up.”
My mind contemplates
In a never ending war
Of heart and mind
Of emotions and reality
Of mine and their purposes
Of everything and nothing.

I’m afraid to wake up
To find myself in a
Fucked up situation
Where there’s no road
To walk on
Where there’s no light
To look through
Where there’s no hope
To believe in.

My eyes gets heavy
My hands inked
In mess they both make
In their war
Unheard and unknown
To the world
The one that is actually
Fucked up!

-Kritika Vashist

(Sometimes you are just Fucked up!)

70 thoughts on “Fucked up!

  1. I think we call that letting it fly! Love the twist in the last line. F’d up in an F’d up world. Seems easy to get in that condition and hard to get out.

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  2. If the voices inside you do not whisper anymore. You should not feel the very same like you say ‘Fucked up!’. There are times when we need to reflect and understand the things that are going around us. We get what we want? But that may be different from our own plan.

    So just wait patiently and welcome this conflicting situation of your life. The moment you accept the reality that would be the first step to come out of that impasse. Hope this idea would work for you. So welcome it and face it as you have faced the phase of harmony in your

    “heart and mind
    emotions and reality
    and Of everything.”

    I read few lines yesterday in Hindi, “”इंसान की ख़्वाहिशात बिल्कुल बुलबुलों की मानिंद होती हैं, जो मालूम नहीं क्यों पैदा होते हैं और क्यों फटककर हवा में खो जाते हैं।”
    – सआदत हसन मंटो की कहानी मिसेज़ गुल की पंक्तियां।

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